First Ten Years

Shawn Mullins First Ten Years Lyrics
1.Changes

I still dont know what i was waiting for
And my time was running wild,
A million dead-end streets.
And every time i thought i'd got it made
It seems the taste was not so sweet,
So i turned my self to face me
But i've never caught a glimpse
Of how the others must see the faker
I'm much too fast to take that test

Ch-ch-ch-changes, turn and face the strange.
Ch-ch-ch-changes, you wanna be a richer man,
Ch-ch-ch-changes, turn and face the strange.
It's gonna be a different man.
Time may change me -- but i cant trace time

I watch the ripples change their size
But never leave the stream
Of warm impermanence.
And so the days flow thru my eyes
But the days still seem the same.
And this children you spit on
As they try to change their worlds,
Are immune to your consultations.
Theyr'e quite aware of what they're going thru.

Ch-ch-ch-changes, turn and face the strange
Ch-ch-ch-changes, don't tell them to grow up and out of it.
Ch-ch-ch-changes, turn and face the strange
Ch-ch-ch-changes, there's your shame,
You've left us up yo our neck in it.
Time may change me, but you can't trace time.

Strange fascination fascinating me.
Oh changes are taking the place i'm going thru.
Ch-ch-ch-changes, turn and face the strange,
Ch-ch-ch-changes, oh look out you rock 'n rollers
Ch-ch-ch-changes, turn and face the strange
Ch-ch-ch-changes, pretty soon now you're gonna get a little
older.
Time may change me, but i can't trace time.


2.Cycle Of Our Souls

Let me touch you
Put my hands on you
I'll kiss you
And we'll see things through
Would you lay with me
Would you lay with me
Till the sun peaks through the blinds
We can stay right here
Till our heads are clear
We can lose all track of time
You are slienced by your memory
And if i lose you
I lose a part of me
I can save the world
I can save the world
But i just can't save myself
So i write these lines
Metaphores and rhymes
Till i think of something else
Is there really nothing else
I am here now
You've got the best of me
So go ahead now
Take the rest of me
There are two of us
There are two of us
It's the cycle of our souls
Yet we try and change
And rearrange the way the story goes
That's the way th story goes...


3.Drumming Clown

As the lights go down
The drumming clown
Whistled a melody
And as the rain pours down
His happy face
Turned into a sad one
The autumn wind reminded him
That the circus had come and gone
So he opened a pack of swisher sweets
And whistles down the first one
His clothes are ragged
And his hat is dusty
His drum is missing snares
He maybe laughin and he may be cryin
But no one knows nor cares
His belly's empty
But his heart is full
He knows where he belongs
So he steps aboard that lovely train
And he whitles his favorite song
And as he sleeps
He dreams of all the pretty girls he's seen throughout his life
And though his dreams are sweet
His aching feet
Awake him in the night
He wakes to the sound of thunder
And he thinks of a reason why
Then he hangs his head to cry
Then he drifted off to a deeper sleep
That no one could disturb
And when he woke
He was at a place that was higher than the birds
He said my god i'm here at last
Is this meant to be
I've lived the life of a hobo clown
Whistle tunes for money
And his lord spoke up
And said my friend
You are not alone
You've lived a good life my drumming clown
And now you have a home
And somewhere a stockboy opens a crate
And finds the butt of an old cigar
He hears a distant whistling
Then he gazes as the stars


4.Eggshells

She slees with the windows open
Yet she's still locked safe inside
And to block out the sounds of the city's commotion
She turns her fan up on high
Yea she lives just far enough away from home
To see the whole scene
And down the street the kids throw sticks and stones
And end up on the the tv screen
Yea they throw their sticks and stones
And end up on the tv screen
And she used to walk on these gracefully
But now they crunch beneath her feet
I guess she must be changin'
There's just no way to keep it neat
And her father still barks like a soldier
Returning from victory
But now eh's much older
And that bark isn't as scary as it used to be
Yea she watches his self torture
No one left to abuse but himself
But still her memory scorches her
And she struggles to love herself
Her memory scorches her
And she struggles to love herself
And she used to walk on these gracefully
But now they crunch beneath her feet
And i guess she must be changin'
She never was to good at stayin' in her seat
And this town grows hungry and restless
Hungry for what i ain't sure
But they're sweepin' the streets of the trash and the homeless
And raisin' the rent
And breakin' the poor
And i used to walk on these gracefully
But now they crunch beneath my feet
And i guess i must be changin'
There's just no way to keep it neat
I used to walk on these gracefully
I guess i must be changin'...


5.Evolution Man

He's a walkin' contradiction when he sings his verse.
He's got a caffeine fix addiction but it could be worse.
And he is loved by many understood in time.
But it's easier to love him than to try to read his mind.
He's a mass of words expression and toil,
And his temples in the trees, the water and the soil --
He's a man of evolution, always changing like the seasons.
He finds the right solution but gets lost in his own reason,
And he's got a ways to go.
I know he's doing what he can.
Sometimes this world's a lonely place for the evolution man,
But she's always been there for him.
She's his steady ground, and he'll never ever own her,
It's the other way around.
'cause she's the way out of here,
She's the needle in his vein,
And he knows she's the only thing that will ever stop the pain.
He stands there naked in the light giving all he's got.
Most folks don't understand that
We're no different than the rocks and stones.
To the evolution man she said,
'i got a funny feelin' that i'm headed somewhere new and
There ain't no use in stealin' your sweet sweet dream from you
'cause i know you'll find what you want if i set you free...
And i'll still be here if you find that what you want is me,
'cause it's a long and lonely road.
I know you're doing what you can
But i never thought it would be so hard to love
The evolution man.
You're an evolution man.'


6.Joshua

Joshua was an old man
His beard like mountain snow
And when i was a boy we'd have jam sessions
I'd sneak off to old sharptop
With my guitar i would go
When i should have been at school
Learnin' my lesson
And i'd sip a little moonshine
And i'd smoke a corncob pipe
And we'd pick all day until our fingers bled
And right around supper time
I'd run home in the night
Just in time to get a whippin' from my dad
Oh way back when
He was 65 and i was 10
And i will never be as free again
Oh way back when
The summer flew by quickly
And josh and i spent out time
Writing words to songs from memories of his past
He'd tell me bout the way it was
And i'd find the perfect rhyme
And i couldn't believe how we wrote our songs so fast
I never knew an old man
Could be so full of life
The love we had was so hard to explain
And i remember how the tears fell when he spoke of his late wife
And i'd give him my 6-string to ease his pain
Oh way back when
He was 65 and i was 10
And i will never be as free again
Oh way back when
And then in late november
I knocked on his cabin dor
I knocked and knocked but joshua never came
And i still remember
How he layed there on the floor
And i went home cryin' in the rain
Oh way back when
He was 65 and i was 10
And i will never be as free again
Oh way back when
Oh way back when
Oh way back when


7.Just Like Me

She seemed almost demented
As she frantically repented
For the crime in which she filled her empty bowl,
It was empty like her soul
She kneeled inside the confession booth,
And she told that holy man the truth
But the booth was empty,
Frozen black as coal,
It was damp and cold.

Where are you gonna run to now?
You lost what faith you had somehow
Your show is over,
It's time to take a bow
Where are you gonna run to now?

She spends her nights with lonely men
And she goes too far every now and then.
But it's her longest running show
And the oldest job around,
They say she's the best in town.

Where are you gonna run to now?
You lost what pride you had somehow
Your show is over,
It's time to take a bow
Where are you gonna run to now?

Now in 5 more years she'll be 23
And in a lot of ways she's just like me
She gives away her body,
I give away my soul.
We're always searching for life's treasures to unfold.
We give it all to you
Yet we have no pot of gold.

So where are we gonna run to now?
We lost what love we had somehow,
We're on this one way highway
Until the bitter end
But where are we gonna run to then?


8.Lately

Lately i've felt deep inside myself maybe something ain't right
I feel like i've been turned and put on the back burner
And there's no rescue in sight maybe i have changed
But you know i feel the same still got this hunger in my bones
I feel like an all night drive all the way to the other side
There's a place i used to call my home
Lately i've seen a different side of me i don't know where i
have gone
I'm killin' friend and foe somebody tell me so i know
Whose side i am on like a cat stuck in a tree
I gotta jump before i'll be free i guess the ground will break
my fall
Lately i've been lost gotta find me an albatross
To lead me back into my port of call hey i hey i
Got something to tell you hey i hey i never meant to hurt you
Gotta get my stuff and go gotta leave to free my soul
Lately i've been out of my head again i don't know what i have
found
I feel at home here i'm not alone here 'lot of messed up heads
in this town
But i never drew one single word from you you lay there hidden
in the prone
I never proved to be anything but an oddity i guess i'm better
of alone
Hey i hey i got something to tell you hey i hey i never meant to
hurt you
Gotta get my stuff and go gotta leave to free my soul


9.Pandora

We opened pandora's box just to see if she was
Home she had an apple pie a jaundiced eye and
A big red telephone she said 'boy's i know why
You are here, you wanna take me for a ride
But before we go i think you ought to know
That i'm awful hard to hide i'm awful hard to
Hide so how will you do in this town boy's(sic)
How will you call him dead? will he die in his
Rack from a heart attack or from a bullet through his head?'
Then she whispered as we took her out 'he need not be afraid
'cause deep inside
The system hide's the truth that you've betrayed the truth that
you've betrayed.'
No where for us to run thirty silver pieces got the job done got
the job done poor
Pandora's life it was not as it had been portrayed a government,
an accident and
Now the bed is made and we tried to put her back but we were
defeated by our
Greed tried again while shadowmen did their dirty little deed
their dirty little
Deed we opened pandora's box just to see what we could find and
in there was a
Note pandora wrote just before she lost her mind it said 'my
passing will allow
A peak(sic) behind the veil of secrecy it's farther out than you
can see just no telling
Where that trail will lead no telling where that trail will
lead.'


10.Salt Lake City 1973

Mormon's are everwhere
Battalions of bicycling bachelors
With dark suits
And well cropped hair
We're mormons too
Have been since '72
I'm riding between my brother and sister
In the back seat of a '67 buick station wagon
With red vinyl seats
We stick by each other
And to those seats
We've been eating cheese and bacon sandwiches
Our mother made for thirteen days straight in the august heat
And both my siblings are wakin' on those eggshells
As i will soon learn how to do myself
They play their quiet silly games
With their peashooters
As i sip luke-warm sprite from a tin can
Sold to me by a hunchback silly bastard old woman
A hundred miles back
Who is probably the only person with good sense
In this part of the country
I still don't know what to do god-awful bacon and cheese
sandwich
But your body is your temple
God tells us so,
So drink up your milk
And reap what you sow
I mold the cheese and bacon sandwich into a ball in my hand
It kind of reminds me of play-dough
I look around to see who is watchin'
And stuff it between the red vinyl seats
No one will find it
At least not for a couple of weeks
We're in this big place now
It's kind of like 1/2 of an blue plastic easter egg shell
And there's a hole in the top
Where the sun cuts through
And lights up the room
And i hear all these male voices
Telling me that black people are inferior
And it's ok to have more than one wife
And as the dry dry breath of the utah sun warms me
I stand before a statue of jesus that is far too big
And has held these folks hostage for so so long
And i gaze up at the nostrils of the sandstone savior
And wonder if it
Can smell all this bullshit
Cause i sure can
And i'm only 5 years old
In salt lake city
In 1973...


11.The Dream

I fell aslep about 12:30 last night
With the remote held in my hand
I drifted off and i could see the light
I was dreaming of the promised land

Oh i had a dream last night
But it's all a little foggy in my head
It was something about brotherhood
And love of all mankind
I spoke with an angel
But i can't remember what she said

You know as peple we are powerless
Yet we live our lives in any old way
Your people, my people,
We're all god's people,
And i don't guess it matters anyway

Oh i had a dream last night
But it's all a little foggy in my head
It was something about brotherhood
And love of all mankind
I spoke with an angel
But i can't remember what she said

I fell aslep about 12:30 last night
And i woke to the sound of the rounds of a .45
And as the ambulance pulled away
I heard a neighbor way,
'so young and so full of life.'

Oh i had a dream last night
But it's all a little foggy in my head
It was something about brotherhood
And love of all mankind
I spoke with an angel
But i can't remember what she said


12.This Time/last Time

My time is your time after all that
You've been through can you hear me calling
You and this line that i'm walking time it's
Pointing write to you i'm living my life with
You so call on me i'll guard myself just wait
And see i'll start a brand new now this time
Is the last time for me my life is in your
Hands you can take me all the way this
Religion in war torn lands the world has seen
Its better days


13.What Is Life

What i feel, i can't saybut my love is there for you anytime of
day
But if it's not love that you need
Then i'll try my best to make everything succeed
Tell me, what is my life without your love
Tell me, who am i without you, by my sidewhat i know, i can do
If i give my love now to everyone like youbut if it's not love
that you need
Then i'll try my best to make ev'rything succeed
Tell me, what is my life without your love
Tell me, who am i without you, by my side
Tell me, what is my life without your love
Tell me, who am i without you, by my sidewhat i feel, i can't
say
But my love is there for you any time of daybut if it's not love
that you need
Then i'll try my best to make everything succeed
Tell me, what is my life without your love
Tell me, who am i without you, by my side
Oh tell me, what is my life without your love
Tell me, who am i without you, by my sidewhat is my life without
your love
Tell me, who am i without you, by my side